March 27th, 2005

Kittens +  Grenade

Marginally coherent


Ramping up on another set of meds.  I forgot what that does to you.  It's like taking your mind, thoughts, emotions, and stirring them with a big ladle until something you like comes up.

So to speak.

I am restless, anxious, disconnected.  I know it's temporary, I'm not worried.  But in the meantime, it's annoying.  I need to keep moving, but I don't have the focus to DO anything with the energy.  So many things need doing.  My New Year's resolution was to handle clutter - I was doing pretty well until this last crash, then I'm back to where I started.  I'd like to get going on that again, but can't focus on any one project really.

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Am doing fine without TV.  As long as we have the net... we can freakin' download TV.  We are exposed to less advertising, and I am doing more reading and embroidery.  Any shows I want I can pick up on DVD I think.  A squirrel has been added to my jacket.  It looks much more chaotic and fuzzy than her carefully-crafted animals - a unicorn, phoenix and snake - but it's a learning process.

Acquisition of piano is on the horizon.

I think I'm calming down... and I'm pretty sure that I will look back on this post and say "wtf was I on?"  Well, future me, it's 150mg zoloft and 150mg wellbutrin.  "Ah, yes, that explains it."
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