contemplativeYes, I've agreed to be interviewed.
*sigh* After the Ruby Wax incident, I swore off the media. Honest I did, and I meant it. But I can't stay jaded; I really am a "fool me thrice and I'll keep coming" sort of wolf. I believe in the best, and I keep believing long after everyone else has learned their lesson.
I think I am the most stubbornly naiive person I know.
Yet... how can I judge one filmmaker by the actions of others? SHE hasn't created bad press (yet). She is not responsible for nor is she (as far as I can tell) associated with those who have. How can I judge her based on the actions of others? That's what the people who create/contribute to our publicity problems do. So what if it's human nature, and it's what one must expect - but I believe in both doing and hoping for something better.
I refuse to judge ALL people seeking to do some sort of film/book/article on furry fandom by the actions of some, or even the actions of the majority. I will judge this filmmaker on her own merits. Not to say I'm not suspicious or cautious - if I find she isn't who she says, or any indication that it is going to be negatively slanted or sensationalized, I bail.
I intend on representing no one but myself. I'm just a very (very... VERY...) strange chick who also happens to be a furry lifestyler. Believe me, I KNOW I'm not your average JoeFur. I'm way out there on the edges, man.
So, loud an'clear, I AM NOT A SPOKESPERSON FOR FURRY. So, now that it's out there in big bold capital letters, don't be a moron and say that's what I'm trying to do, eh? I represent myself and I speak for myself, although I expect I will also present my perceptions regarding others. Nearly a decade of being in the fandom's gotta be worth something.
That having been said... those who speak at least have a chance of being represented. If you do not speak - as is your choice and your right - then there is NO chance of representation. And that's fine. Think staying below the radar is best? I'm not gonna argue. But don't blame those of us who do choose to speak for skewing the data, because you didn't provide any alternative input.
I have looked into the filmmaker's rep (Googled, not hand-fed URLs), and so far so good. She's not a journalist; but she is an underground filmmaker and published fiction author.
We'll see. This whole thing may get derailed before it starts, or hit problems anywhere along the line and never see a final cut, or it could blossom into the biggest fiasco since Vanity Fair. But there's also a chance it could become something good, something better, and I would be lying if I said I didn't genuinely believe in supporting that.
That's me. The eternal fall-boy and reliable patsy. Maybe some day the person around the corner won't trip me. And, maybe I'm a fanciful, pretentious idiot who just makes things worse for everyone. But I believe in certain things, and I will act by them.
I will at least be true to myself, whatever that is, and whatever the world makes it out to be.
