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Kittens +  Grenade


Building had a fire drill today. Wash rinse repeat, apparently there is one every year. I did it last year, so I can vouch that yes, you do get dizzy going down the stairs because you constantly turn in one direction... and that's WITH the direction switch part-way down.

This year there was a problem. I still have a lot of trouble going down stairs. It HURTS. I don't have that range of motion back yet. No way in hell was I making it down 12 flights - I had trouble the last time with muscle fatigue, and I wasn't recovering from injury!

I brought it up with the HR manager, and it was no problem. There was a group of various people who for various reasons wouldn't be doing the drill (an elderly client, a coworker with a rib fracture from a recent car accident, someone with a bad knee), I could join them. We'd just stand in the stairwell until it was over.

It was fine, really... but... two people asked us what we were doing, and when the answer was "we're the disabled group," the answer was invariably an exasperated roll of the eyes. One of them even said "oh please," as she headed down the stairwell. They didn't even stick around long enough for any of us to retaliate. Though I did snark "Bite me" at the first.

I shouldn't be touchy about that. I really know I shouldn't. But it's a long-standing sore point. My feet have always been a hidden disability. I'm not sitting out because I'm lazy. I'm not shirking the annoying exercise that everyone else has to do. I'm not exactly unhappy about not doing it, but I would if I could.

It's just.... people look at me, and I'm not on crutches or in a wheelchair (anymore - o how short the coworker's memory must be), so obviously I'm perfectly able-bodied and therefore I'm just LAZY. Not Trying Hard Enough, TM.

Contribute to my sense of worthlessless a little more, why don't you. I'm sorry I don't have a big red H on the front of my forehead to tell you all the details of my physical condition.

Looking back, I should have given a smartass answer like "we're waiting for everyone else to leave so we can jump." Or something more specific, "ankle still healing." You never think of these things when it matters. I'd like to save them for next year, except next year I'll probably be able to do the drill with everyone else.


The only part that bothers me...

... Where was I? Oh... yes:

The only part that bothers me is. What if it had been an actual fire or evacuation emergency? Would they abandon you, and the rest of the incapacitated persons up there to be charred?
If not, no matter how much it hurts, you and the rest should have done the drill. That is, after all, the point of the drill. To practice how to exit under your current abilities should the need for such arise.

And, before anyone gets upset - Yes, I have personally done worse, and yes, I have helped others through worse in similar as well as actual emergency circumstances.

Re: The only part that bothers me...

Theoretically firemen would be sent up to get those who couldn't make it down... i.e. like when I was in a wheelchair a couple months ago.

If there was a real emergency, I would try to make it down. But since it was a test, there is no sense in injuring myself or overstraining healing tissue. The point of the exercise is so that everyone is familiar with procedure and route, which I am. NOT to hurt yourself.

I don't see the sense in injuring myself for a drill.