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No seriously, don't.

FUCKING hell. A coworker (secretary) just forwarded me this. First off, not only do I have a bad startle reflex, but also my stomach is very touchy today (I couldn't go to work yesterday due to stomach cramps that strained an internal muscle; it's mostly better now, but not all the way). Yeah, perfect, adrenaline will make it better. Especially given the accompanying text:

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Subject: This is freaky!!!

Check this one out!!!!
I hope you can hear it :)



See if you can see the ghostly figure in this commercial. Creepy!!!!!!
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Like a moron I put on my headphones and listened to it. Really should have known better, but nothing like that has ever been forwarded to me via work in the two years I've been here, so I didn't expect that.

I HATE that I get startled so badly. I can't help it, or stop it. Antidepressants have helped a little, but I think it's a basic neurological thing. For the most part it's sound-based, though naturally visuals (or, god forbid, someone actually sneaking up on me to startle via touch) don't help. Sometimes I can smother it, IF I know something is coming (i.e., a movie I've seen before) and buckle down for it. But that is difficult, and doesn't always work. I still jump sometimes at Jurassic Park, which I saw seven times in the theatre, and is one of my favorite movies ever.

I don't always get that horrible rush of fear and adrenaline (followed by self-recrimination for being a pussy, yeah, that helps), but my threshhold trigger seems to be set much lower than other people's, with ratcheting levels of severe response. Something that wouldn't startle a normal person makes me jump; something that would startle a normal person gives me a gut-deep fight/flight response.

I can't, unfortunately, expect people to know, so I forgave the culprit and asked her not to do it again. I didn't explain everything, only said that I didn't like being startled; I didn't want it to seem like I was trying to put a guilt trip on her, or being a drama queen.

Unfortunately most people simply don't get it, even after I tell them to Seriously Don't Do That. Having a friend sneak up behind me to startle me gives me the equivalent emotional reaction that a normal person would feel being suddenly attacked by a large dog. To then have someone brush off your reaction or treat it as if it is all in good fun is like having the owner pull the slavering dog back and grin, "hey dude, can't you take a joke? He wouldn't have hurt ya..."

Asshole, yes? But this is part of what normal people in a casual social environment do. Yet there I am, surrounded by people whose normal acceptable behavior provokes in me an extreme neurological reaction. It's no one's fault I am this way, but I'm still the one stuck picking up the pieces of my sanity, every time.

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I remember those

There were a s eries of flash animations that went for that angle...I think they were called "Scream Flashs". I didnt think much of htem even tho it did startle me.

That is a respect issue for sure if he/she persists and sends you another one of those type of things. I can say I learn a bit more about you everyday.

Re: I remember those

I hate those things. And I pity people who think they're funny.

Re: I remember those

No kidding.

Know what IS funny?

SPOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOON GUAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARD!!!

Re: I remember those

For happy kittens!

Re: I remember those

^_^ It's kind of a double-edged sword - I want people to know so that they don't do this sort of thing to me, but on the other hand, I'm also giving anyone who bears me ill will a point of vulnerability. But, maybe I'm being too wolfish about it.

Re: I remember those

*giggles*

well dont feel bad. Still...I guess Halween pranks are out of the question (not that i know where you live)

Kat

Re: I remember those

Being spooked is a common human vulnerability--but yours sounds like a particularly serious kind. Unfortunately there will always be shock jock kinds of jokes and people out there, and there's no way to get around it.

Just note the people who do this, and try to avoid anything they offer unless you can be somewhat certain about their intentions. You're a good person, it's sad people try to take advantage of your generous nature.
holy CRAP~! *jumps* O.O Yeah, pro'lly shouldn't have looked at it, but it gives me a good idea of what you're talking 'bout.

I have the same thing, though not as bad. Hence why I asked to be warned when you and Chythar showed me Pitch Black for the first time. I think I still jerk a little at the "Mr. Hammond, I think we're back in business!!" and then the Velociraptor attacks Ellie.(in Jurassic Park.) XP

I hate the sudden lack of control over my body. The adrenaline pumps and I jerk HARD and I can't stop it. Plus the adrenaline gives me headaches. Gragh. :P

I hope that things....get figured out. Somehow. :) *snuggles*

*watches Pitch Black* mmm... *grabs a bucket for the drool*
I'd like to make a parody of those things one day. It would go something like this:

There's a puzzle, perhaps one of those "How many mistakes can you find in this picture" things. After a few seconds, a cartoon character appears and has a conversation with someone offscreen.

"So what am I supposed to do?"
"Put on the mask, and jump out and scream."
"Okay." [The guy puts a monster mask on.] "Now, where do I jump out?"
"You... umm... you're supposed to jump out where you're standing right now. Oh crap, they can see you!"
"Huh? ...Oops. Should we start over?"
"No, it's no good now! They know you're going to do it. You *ruined* it!"
"Sorry..."

And then the guy walks offscreen, and the scene fades to black. The following words appear onscreen (silently):

UMM...
BOO?
BY THE WAY, THERE WERE NO MISTAKES IN THE PICTURE. IT'S JUST A PHOTO OF MY MOM'S DINING ROOM.
ADMITTEDLY, HER POT ROAST IS OFTEN CONSIDERED A MISTAKE.
Well, I had the same reaction, and I'm usually off toward the "unflappable" side. I don't think it's funny or cute, and I immediately wanted to throttle someone. For sure, if that had been a commercial for anything I might have bought, after seeing it I never would.

Short of hitting something, I've found it useful to get up and move to help my system clear out the adrenalin. If for some reason, I have to stay put, then deep abdominal breathing is good, too.

So, kiddo, I think your reaction is normal and healthy. It's the bozos who spawned that are the sick ones.
Godammit, I knew it was coming and I STILL just about shit...

Those things are not only not funny to me- sending me something like that can get you punched out the next time I see you...
(My reflexs run to violence at being startled....I spent too many years working as a nighttime guard poking around dark places where there was a reasonable possibility of tripping over some unsavory person who had no business being there...)

NOT funny....

-Badger-